NOT IF I SEE YOU FIRST

Eric Lindstrom

Parker Grant doesn’t need 20/20 vision to see right

through you. That’s why she created the Rules:

Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s

blind, and never take advantage. There will be no

second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy

who broke her heart.

When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after

being gone for years, Parker knows there’s only

one way to react—shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind

already, like trying out for the track team (that’s right,

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Parker Grant doesn’t need 20/20 vision to see right

through you. That’s why she created the Rules:

Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s

blind, and never take advantage. There will be no

second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy

who broke her heart.

When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after

being gone for years, Parker knows there’s only

one way to react—shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind

already, like trying out for the track team (that’s right, her eyes don’t work

but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive

classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn’t cried since

her dad’s death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves

impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened—both

with Scott, and her dad—the more she starts to question if things are always

as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.

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  • Poppy
  • Hardcover
  • December 2015
  • 320 Pages
  • 9780316259859

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About Eric Lindstrom

Eric Lindstrom is a BAFTA and WGA-nominated

veteran of the interactive entertainment industry. Not if I See You First is

his debut novel.

Praise

“Thoughtful and honest, with characters that made me laugh, cry, and surprised

me at every turn. It’s a book I’ll recommend for years to come.”—Kody Keplinger, bestselling author of The DUFF

“A beautiful story about love, loss, friendship, and the difference between

looking and truly seeing.”—Jennifer Brown, author of Hate List

“This book is fierce, funny, and honest. And get ready for some of the most

likable characters you’ve read in years.”—Deb Caletti, National Book

Award finalist

“Parker Grant is unforgettable: vivid, feisty, and absolutely loveable. This

book broke my heart, but left me smiling.”—Fiona Wood, author of

Wildlife and Six Impossible Things

Discussion Questions

As the novel is told from the perspective of a blind

narrator, the characters are not introduced with the

usual physical descriptions that authors often rely upon.

What are some unconventional descriptors that Eric

Lindstrom uses?

How do people intentionally and unintentionally break Parker’s Rules?

How does Parker’s reliance on her rules change over the course of the

novel?

Rule #11 is: “Don’t be weird.” Why is this rule important to Parker, and

why might it be a challenging one for the people in Parker’s life?

Parker claims that she “tells it like it is” and practices tough love, but

sometimes her opinions come across as abrasive or mean. How do you

differentiate between being honest and being kind?

What factors contribute to the tension in Parker’s relationship with

Aunt Celia? What might Celia’s perspective be on their situation?

Why does Parker wear blindfolds? What do you think the blindfolds

symbolize?

Once Parker learns the truth about Scott’s middle school “prank,” she

second-guesses her initial reaction to the incident. Do you believe

the depth of Parker’s anger was justified at the time? Should she have

forgiven Scott sooner, or did she make the right decision?

Even after Parker has forgiven Scott, he doesn’t want to be friends with

her. Do you believe his reasoning is justified?

What insights did you get from the novel about the life of someone

navigating the world as a blind person? What insights did you get

about navigating the world as a typical teenager?

The title on the book jacket is Not if I See You First, but the Braille says

something different. Decipher the Braille. Now that you’ve read Parker

Grant’s story, what does this second message mean to you?